"Weirdness"

There is something about me that I don't really like, nor do I understand it. I am not able to handle when plans change. I am a pretty mentally organized person and I map my days out pretty well. I think most moms have to. So when I have something planned in my head to go one way, and for one reason or another it changes, a chemical or something in my body goes off and I can't control it. I get frustrated. That's why I get so stressed out about throwing parties. Because inevitably something will not go as planned. Anyway, what brought this whole evaluation on was our summer solstice celebration. We had planned it all out, and of course it didn't go that way. The fact that it doesn't really matter, and that it's all supposed to be fun doesn't out weigh the fact that plans got changed and the frustration set in. All in all, we had a good time even though we had to skip the hike and almost missed the sunset. I always enjoy being with our friends though and that's what really matters right? I wish I could get passed this but for some reason no matter how hard I fight it, that frustrated feeling sets in and I have what Logan and I have termed "weirdness". If anyone has any tips on how to avoid "weirdness"- please let me know!

Here are a few pics of us at sunset on summer solstice. . . the longest day of the year!